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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 06:01

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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She loved him until the end.

I will be 64.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I am so tired of ignorant people like you calling us far rights, why democrats is so educated, they take things from their own mouth, you guys are totalitarian party?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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Why did i forgive my father ?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

This is soul school!.

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So, i spoilt her more .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Was to survive, this bastard.

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When she asked me how she looked .

He resisted the act ,that day.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

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Who then, do I blame.?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Especially a lifetime of it.

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He knew the spot.

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She wouldn,t have been !

I waited trembling.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We all went to grammer schools

What is the most heartbreaking or sad love story that you ever had (experienced)?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I have no regrets .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I don,t even have a pension.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I was scared of men, in general

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Comes on , in middle age.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Put me off passion for life!!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

What did i know ?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

So whats the point in blame.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Ive learnt so much.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My life is so biszare .

It was going to be , some day.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I said to her

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But, we were locked up after school.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I couldn’t, believe it.

We were not on the streets..

I think the readers, may guess!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She found it foreign!.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

My family never makes their pension either.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

She married twice! .

I never cut or harmed myself..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I could never make a relationship work though!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But it wasn’t much.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Would this be the day?

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I was seconnd youngest,

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

One cannot live in the past .

Im still living with it.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She was in good health!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I was very sick at this time too.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I write beautiful poetry .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

All the time i was locked up.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And i lived it daily.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I was 9 years of age.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But ive been too sick for many years..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.